Just finished otp with my qtpie. Oh.. we're not together but I called him just bcs I miss him. Oh his voices is the sweetest thing in the world. Its cute okay. Eh where is my spectacles? Oh found it. So, the title is about cant forgive but not "cant forget". Understand? Okay whatever. So I end the call bcs of, I dont have any mood.
Its bcs I think about that bitch again and again. And buat takde mood lagi is, when I asked him about Nur Aen, he said "entah". I know that he knew something about that girl. "Jue, he's not even yours".. I know dearself but I love him so its hard for me to accept the fact. Im the type of person who gets jealous easily. Cant you see that I want to know about that bitch a lot?
Ugh atleast boleh lepas rindu for 51mins. I said "sayang you" and he replied back! Hooyeah. Well, kinda happy but yeah.. Tak sepatutnya I asked abt that bitchy bitch right? Ugh why haa my mind? Why you remind me of her? Okay wtv. I was so happy but I guess he didnt feel the same. I was hoping he could stop me from saying bye but he didnt.
"Thats why dont put high hopes on him". Yeah I know dearself but he used to stop me. Mhm, dulu dan sekarang sangat berubah. Ya Allah, I love him a lot. If only dia pun sayang aku a lot. Tu pun "if only".. Thank you Allah cause you made me happy for 51mins. Alhamdulillah. Hm, I short form the "sayang" cause its kinda 'malu' okay when you called someone sayang, then the person tak reply balik.
I called him syg, he didnt reply too. So its just the same la wahai zuliana. I miss us, for your information. I want you to love me secara ikhlas. Yknow what I mean kan? Not bcs of I begged too much. Okay takde kena mengena pun actually. Omg, just dm-ed him "i love you".
Trust me, he will reply "i know". Ya Allah, please fulfill my doa. I hope he'll change. I still cant forget about 17.01.2013. That is the date that we planned.. Its okay. I love you baby qtpie sayang baby bushuk. Xoxo, J.
